QUIET Time

What is that? It's time that you are allowed to think without interruption, a moment or several moments of time where there is no nagging noise, no whining, no crying or even the joyous sound of laughter.. it's QUIET! AND I NEED MY QUIET TIME!!!

Over this weekend I began to realize that I have lost my identity. I guess you could say that since I became "mother" I was no longer "me" ie, Elaine. Who was that person? Who is she now? I know I've changed and most for the better.. but when the children are gone and they have moved on with their lives (which I guess will happen some day, right??!!) what then? Who will I be then? What will I do with myself? What are the thoughts that will crowd my mind then? Right now I barely have time to complete a thought much less anything else. Where is this all coming from? It's coming from need to feel like I can still be loved for more than just what I can do for someone. I guess I could even back this up to "what will I do with myself while on vacation", "what will the kids do?", yeah I know to some it sounds really pathetic, but HELLO! I am a STAY AT HOME MOM!! 99% of my time is spent caring for my children, not anything else! I don't have outside hobby's, yes even my sewing is AT HOME! So.. the wheels are turning, I think there is going to be "me" time while on vacation.. maybe I will learn something new about myself.. maybe I will like it?!

I guess I got so caught up in the day to day grind, and yes every moment is precious, but ahh.. so much more so when I've had time to just be ME. I need this time even as short as it is most days because it's the only time of the day that gives me a break from being on autopilot. It's a chance that I can rest my eyes, or listen to MY music, or write, or sew.. or whatever I want for just 1 hour. I need this time, because there isn't any other time I get. What about you? Do you ever feel like you are on autopilot? Do you ever feel like a robot? You forgot what it feels like to get hot, to tingle, to want to jump up and down to your favorite song? Why not take that time during quiet time? Don't let your day go by without feeling alive, thanking God for your nerve endings and senses, do something for yourself, don't forget who you are, and don't forget who God created you to be. I'm going to jam to some music now and play with some material.. :)

Going on Vacation! 20% Coupon!

Did I tell you all that I am going on vacation???? NO?? WHAT? I didn't???? That's because I didn't think it could really happen! Yep, even though my REALLY, REALLY good friend bought us tickets to England, I guess somewhere deep in my heart I didn't think it was going to happen... well guess what... IT IS!!! And I am officially freaking out! Seriously, you would think that I would be eternally grateful and thankful (which I AM!), but I am also really nervous about flying, leaving the kids, being out of my comfort zone for 10 days. I mean I don't usually leave the house on even a daily basis.. yeah I know that sounds lame.. but I have two small children and I have a small daycare with babies.. so.. it's not always easy for me to get out! So here I am trying to find ways to calm myself down and lean on the comfort that I know God is in complete control and I don't need to be worried.. but it's still hard.

I do have some good news to pass onto you all! Since I am going on vacation I have decided to put what's left on Laine's Babies up for a SALE! Yes, that's right, you can receive 20% off anything that I currently have for sale on my ecrater store site. Just go there and buy what you want using the VACA20 coupon code! You won't be disappointed I'm sure! Thanks to all of you!
This sale ends 5/22/09

Stay at Home Mom

I know some people wonder what stay at home moms do all day.. well I'm here to tell you that we don't sit around painting our toes nails or watching soaps all day. Nor do we have all the time in the day to keep home 100% in order.. so if you happen to ever stop by my house you will see that the laundry is overflowing, the dishes are piling up, toys will be all over the house (watch your step!), kids music or praise music will be playing (to keep someone sane).
I will more than likely look like I haven't showered even though I do every morning. Yes, my shirt & pants will more than likely be stained from milk or snot. Those things do not bother me anymore, and actually I tend to feel a bit lost without this mess. While organizing used to be a priority, it's found it's place on the "never going to happen" list. There are days when I feel like running away, but then I am reminded that their smiles and laughter fill my soul with an everlasting warmth that can not be replaced by clean sheets, sexy hair, or any other frivolous thing that the world tries to offer. No, I am quite content with being a stay at home mother to my amazing, yet imperfect children. I love them with all that I have and am thankful that I live in a country where I can be a stay at home mom.
So to all the people wondering what we do all day, I ask you.. Is your life full of laughter, tears, and the moment of peace that comes when everyone is quiet? And if your not a stay at home mom, I hope that in the times you are with your children that you relish in their love, for they so desire to know that you are their everything.