Random Thoughts for this Week

I have had these thoughts swarming my head for the week and for some reason felt the need to get it off me and on here, so here it goes.

• If I can't have it, I give it to God.
• I feel convicted every time I need to clean the fridge out of food I haven't eaten.
• I don't like to waste anything, I recycle most things. (yes even plastic bags, I haven't bought any in a LONG time)
• Sometimes watching my children eat is like torture, other times it's pure joy.
• I think that fasting should be for food, not things.
• I have really odd dreams and wish I could understand them, Lord help me!
• I am easily frustrated by messes and clutter
• I pray for my Grandmother& brother all the time and miss them like crazy, I wish I could take my children to see them in England.
• I have strong urges to breastfeed, especially when they turn in to me. I guess this is mothers intuition.
• I am excited about some free personalized notes I will be getting in the mail!
• I think more than I talk.. and wonder if that is healthy sometimes?.. see why I blog! :)

That's it.. I'm sure there are more.. but I will just add later.. silly huh?

Dress Making and Life- Hidden messages...

I am currently working on a Princess Dress for Keke. I don't have a lot of time to dedicate to it, much like the rest of my life really. This is my first Princess Dress and requires a lot of attention to detail.. assuring I don't make any small mistakes that will cause the whole dress to spoil. As I stole a few moments this afternoon to sew a few sides together I became confident in what I was doing. When I came back after lunch to open up the front sides and smile upon my work I realized that I had made a mistake.. and a stupid one too! I had sewn the right and left sides together rather than sewing it to the middle... and well I was not happy about my mistake to say the least...
I have to be extra careful with organza & satins as they will show any rips or mistakes easily. I have to take my time pulling every stitch out carefully. As I am looking upon the piece or "mistake" I began to grow frustrated. I am not by nature patient, I want it done now! I have learned to be patient with others... but not with myself. I started to wonder "what does God want me to learn from this?", because I believe that everything has it's purpose even if it's not good or in my plans, there is a purpose to it.. I started to see how my focus on getting all of it done was overwhelming and that realistically I can only take one stitch at a time. Much like any mistakes I have made in the past whether it be with sewing or life, I must take it one day, one mistake, one moment at a time. If I saw the long line ahead of me I could easily give up and feel hopeless, but God calls me to focus on today, right now, and allow Him to guide my thoughts, words and actions.
So even though I know I have lost at least 30 minutes in undoing my "mistake" I will learn something from it and perhaps next time I will pay closer attention to where I am needed most.

Ok, back to work :)

Little Doses of Sugar

I know I can complain about my children and how their needs always overtake me, but I truely do love them. Motherhood has changed me, and all for the better. It causes me to live a life not for myself but for them. Christ calls me to live a life according to His ways, and because His ways are better than mine I try to submit to Him everyday. It not only helps me be a better mother, it helps me to appreciate my children and life (no matter how hard it can be), to live each day as though it may be my last.

Here are some noteworthy moments in my life that the children have shown me they care:

• Keke said "I want to be a mommy when I grow up", this has to be the best compliment EVER!
• Effy received much praise from the staff at church, how kind he was in sharing and being gentle with the other children.
• Keke and Effy are just as excited to see my daycare babies as I am, and show them love with hugs and kisses and "YEA's" when they come over.
• Effy stood behind me and stroked my hair, leaned over and kissed me several times for at least 5 minutes.
• Keke would rather spend time with me instead of playing by herself for "quiet time".
• They both fight over my lap.. but are happy just to sit next to me for cuddling together.

^{Mark8:34-38 "34}Then he called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. ³⁵For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it. ³⁶What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul? ³⁷Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? ³⁸If anyone is ashamed of me and my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his Father's glory with the holy angels."

February 20th at 6:00 on...

I know I said that I wanted to keep this positive.. I say a lot of things and then need to be "real".. with that said please allow me to complain about my night.. because if I don't get it off my chest I might carry it into the next day...

My day has been full of hard labor, from cleaning my clothes by hand because we have to pay $3.50 just to wash ONE LOAD and I can't even afford diapers this week! That also means I have been putting Effy in his cloth diapers, which I will also have to wash by hand... yeah I'm NOT looking forward to that day, which will probably be tomorrow! YEAH ME!!!! :D

Fridays are always a day that we have to run around.. and I thought I was getting off easy when Superman skipped his afternoon class meaning I wouldn't have to drive him to school and then pick up Keke and an hour later go and pick him up.. but instead I had to wait till 2:30 to get the car this being the ONLY day I could return my CCRR items in time to not get penalized I HAD to go and drag all the things back and then take out new items for the kids. The "girl" checking me in/out was not so nice, she barely said a word to me and couldn't even muster a smile.. you know my day hasn't been so great either but at that point I was still smiling... untill 6:00 pm.

I had a lovely long chat with my brother, even was able to lovingly talk about the kids and all.. when there came the time to let him go and work on making dinner. I had already planned on making potatoe soup for everyone and figured it would be much appreciated. With lots of carrots and celery to go around I handed them out by stix to keep the kids happy... Dinner is ready and Effy sits up and eats A LOT, A WHOLE BUNCH OF FOOD, ENOUGH FOR 2 KIDS! Keke on the other hand just sits there like a bump on a log, looking at me like she is going to push every single button I have on me... I did everything the child wanted, added some salt, cheese, blew on it, stirred it around for her.. and she just looked at me like "hmm what else can I do to upset her?".. and she did it. I asked her to leave the table. she cried.. and cried.. and cried like she just lost her favorite kitty cat.. or that I don't know for heaven's sake... she just wouldn't stop crying.. then it stopped and she came out and was chewing on something.. food?.. no she hadn't eaten a single bit.. "open your mouth.. what is that?" " I dunno" "what do you mean to you don't know?" "I dunno".. "spit it out!" spits it out into my hand, I exame it and it appears to be some kind of clear rubbery material, "do you know what this is?" my voice getting louder.. "no" she says innocently.. "It's poisen!!" dramatic, I know! "How could you put something in your mouth that which you don't know what it is????" I am getting really steamed! "You're 4 years old and you don't know that you only put food in your mouth yet?" I had to think for a second.. because she is allergic to some foods ya know, so I followed it up with "food that only mum and dady give you!" I am so irritated.. she will chew on something she has no clue what it is, but not the food that I just spent 45 minutes preparing and making it perfect for their little mouths, she insults me (I place the back of my hand to my forhead with a slight disdain look about me). "WHY?", "I dunno mommy".. "go to your room!" My temper is rising and I need to take a deep breath.. she is crying again.. and again.. and again.. it goes on for 1/2 hour.. I am steaming as I clean up the kitchen and try to recompose myself.. it's just not fair... right?
Finally I calm down, and am enjoying my time for a few minutes when she quietly walks up to me.. "momma I'm tired, I fell asleep", "ok, why don't you go put your PJ's on and you can go to bed", "ok momma". I follow her into her room and start picking things up for her, since she is so tired I thought I would be kind and do it for her... then Effy comes in and I can smell the poo.. "ooooo not again".. "time for a bath buddy".. Keke gets a dishearted look about her, I know she too wants a bath but not tonight since she's so tired... I take Effy to the bathroom and remember I said that I had put him in a cloth diaper.. yeah.. I had to clean that out in the toilet and it CLOGS! No problem.. I'll just grab the plunger and unclog it.. but the plunger isn't WORKING! I am beating the toilet with this pathetic plunger, Effy is enjoying his bath as best as he can with me gasping for air cursing satan for making my night awful, and Keke.. well she's not in bed yet.. she's decided to make a bigger mess for me when I'm all done with what I've got going on.. I yell at her to "PICK UP for mum!" she doesn't..
finally the toilet unclogs, I grab the bleach and some hot water.. clean up the mess.. grab Effy from the tub, dress him as quickly as I can.. send Keke off to bed.. tuck them each in and then proceded to pick the rest of the mess up..
AND NOW.. I am done writing my day and am going to sit back and drink some rum! Cheers!

Did You Hear Something??

NOPE! It's beautifully quiet around here right now because Effy's taking a sweet nap and Keke is on her way to Ms. Robin's house!!!!! I can hear heaven singing "Hallelujah"!!! This is the first night/24 hours away from Keke and I am so pumped! I know some of you might be wagging your tongues at me.. but hear me out! I have been caring for Keke24/7, 365 days a year for the past 4 years without more than a 3 hour break (and that's when she's at preschool, oh also excluding the night over in the hospital for Effy's birth)! I have long awaited the day when I could sit and read, or write, or talk on the phone again without interuption.. well that might be a long time to come because I do still have Effy. But he is so much easier to play with, eat with, talk to, the list could go on! Effy is just an easy going kind of kid whereas Keke is very, VERY, hig mantinance type of gal. I pitty the husband she will marry.. or maybe not? I don't know, I just know that she is hyper, crazy, and I'm looking forward to some peace and quiet. I'm sure I will miss her at some point? right? I do love her, so don't get me wrong.. it's just that you can only handle so much whinning and crying and screaming and hyperactiviness for so long without going a little nuts.. hehehehehe... ok.. calm down... deep breath...DEEP BREATH!.. ahhhh.. better...
So my little Princess is totally excited to be at Robin's house and Robin is just as excited to care for her. It's a good thing & I hope this can turn into something we can do more often. So now I am going to go do something I have been wanting to do for the past few weeks and that's finish a letter to my Grandmother!

I burned my FINGER!!!!

Yeah so I have a new hobby... glue gun and yep I burned myself.. it reads 380 F...ummm yeah... 1 hour later it's still burning!!!! BUT my little project for my little princess turned out beautifully!!! AND I already want to make another one!!! :D but.. maybe I'll wait till I've healed... I hope she appreciates this... that's all I will say.. so Check out my princess who will be turning 4 in 2 weeks.. and then check out the tutu!

25 Random Things About Your Spouse/Significant Other

I don't know if many of you have seen this running around on Facebook, but I really like my list that I managed to come up with and thought I would tag some of my bloggy friends with it. So I will follow my list up with a short list of people I want to tag.. you better do it or else! (I'll just sit here and whine about it)


Rules:
Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about your spouse/significant other. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about your spouse too.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your spouse 25 random things, tag 25 people (don't forget to tag your spouse/significant other, then click publish.)

25 random things about my spouse/significant other

1. Hubby loves babies, and all kids in general. He even waves at other peoples kids in the store.

2. When I was pregnant with Keke I got very emotional about some "rumors" about me, he called my boss and told her that he was going to kick someone's A** if the problem wasn't taken care of.. there was a meeting that followed this.

3. Superman toured back in the 90's (?, right hun?) with a christian band.

4. Superman never complains when I CAN'T cook, he just picks up something or makes dinner

5. If Suerman had a bumper sticker it would read "I'd rather be drumming"

6. He thinks burping and farting are funny (ok, so I do too now....)

7. I nicknamed him Superman, because he looks good in a tight blue suit and red cape... :) well really because he really can do anything he puts his mind to

8. Superman had shingles a few months ago and I told him they were just spider bites... I felt really bad when the nurse mocked him about it.. sorry hun

9. His driving scares me sometimes, but I still feel safer when he's driving than myself AND so do other people apparently.

10. He has 3 tattoo's and I make fun of the dragon all the time.. right?!?!?!?! :D

11. Most men like to get a little dirty once in a while.. not my man, he's always smelling nice!

12. Superman and I are 10 years apart and most people wouldn't ever guess that he was almost 38! GASP!

13. He hates to clean and thinks it's a "woman's job" lol, & since he can't do it my way I agree!

14. He's the meat man in the house, I'm not very good with it... (stop thinking dirty thoughts ppl, I'm talking about steak and chicken)

15. When I'm sick he does everything he can to help me feel better, like buying lots of drugs to dope me up and cooking/cleaning/even taking care of the kids. But he won't come near me with a 10 foot poll.

16. He drove my VW Cabrio to save money even though he thinks it's a total chick car, and even had some dumb guys make fun of him. He's a real man, secure with his manliness

17. He would do just about anything for his close friends & family

18. Superman is a morning person, though I think college has been changing this a bit..

19. Superman has green eyes, like olives!

20. Superman likes to sing in a kiddy voice, it's really cute and the kids love it (but don't ask him, because it's for us only)

21. He's really funny, even if it sounds vulgar he has a way of making it so funny you can't help but laugh

22. Superman likes chocolate just about as much as I do.. really!

23. He was saved as a teen, went to Bible college, and has a great knowledge of the Bible

24. He died once and was brought back to life, THANK GOD!

25. He puts me and the kids first, couldn't ask for a better man.


Ok and for the 5 people I am going to pick on Ken at Dad to Two, Angie at In Pursuit of Fulfillment, Julia at Midwest Moms, Farrah at Wife & Mom of 3, and finally Wendy at An Iowa Mom. So pick on your spouses and let the world know how much you love them! And hey it might be just the thing to kickstart Valentine's Day!